TOGETHER

 

However pale the pearl

 

light from above

just as insanity arrives uncandled

my missing parents

 

feel not one emotion

love desire or fear etc.  

without the others thinking of wars & worse

 

enforced laws against so-and-so for such-and-such

 

 

 

 

…SO-AND-SO

 

I see myself clearly

who’s sick here

 

poured into tight pants

& later undressed save that

I’m stranded in a necklace

 

of moonlight down

drinking chaperoned

by the cosmos

one dog day & night arguing

that spirit as much as any body

is severely limited

 

in its emotion

the will is not free

is what a friend said

 

after my breakdown

but gets it up faster than a porn star

 

 

…STAR

 

While neither money nor honey much

matters only breathing so my shame

clamping down my lungs with its fuselage

 

is not helping it’s not fitting

that some die while I go free

 

some nobody decides shun shun shun

& it has a sound with a shape

of freakazoidal afternoon shadows

 

 

 

 

…FREAKS

 

Caused by bombers breaking another barrier

these pocks punched in blue sky

by evening become a monstrosity with a shithole

 

as my father used to say for a mouth

& this is how I imagine the murdered feel kissed

lightly by their perpetrators at the ferry when they dock

 

escorted to dinner & ordered an obscure California vintage

damaged so that they are only able to speak in tongues

of how the furies treated people

 

among whom I have a passing resemblance

 

 

 

 

RESEMBLANCE

 

We were driving

 

debating twilight

 

& what evening meant about dusk

 

we hoped to learn the instant

 

night falls & too late

 

though we saw

 

the first star

 

said not yet

then Venus not yet moonlight

 

now? no

this is how I fail again

 

to let you go

 

I never hear the orders

finally in your twin beds

 

in your shells you say

 

Janie we love you anyway

 

 

I bury one in the sun immediately

 

& the other in the rain soon after

 

 

then another night

 

with the bar closed & the bed covered in clothing

 

a rat kills a chipmunk

 

a dog snaps the neck of a cat

 

a dog mauls a smaller dog

 

a gunshot kills a deer

 

the dead deer dying & is now dead

 

sorry I have to let you down so sorry

 

your personal moon is blown away

 

by the ultra-gun of tomorrow

FUTURE

 

Beyond this timeless spacious

 

world of bloodied noses & buckteeth marks

 

there is a numbness

 

about you now

 

I sense you are pulling yourselves out

 

of some fear-fuck

something forbidden

 

or softer in German

 

verboten

 

 

 

VERBOTEN

 

My darklings can you prevent my lover and me

 

from a nightmare of fish

 

sliced with a sharp & sacred knife

 

& served as raw flesh

 

on porcelain cured at very high heat?

 

 

as human skin procured in the ovens of far cities

 

served God

FAR CITIES

 

I am powerless

 

& ask for your sword

 

I ask forgiveness

 

 

 

 

FORGIVENESS GRANTED

 

Fred rushes Stuttgart’s airport

like a pilot a day late for his plane

what does he do in Germany?

his luggage is a gold ring

the day is fine it is the night

 

rumored to be cool & foggy

that has me edgy

we travel several bridges together

to select your casket unfortunately

brought low by the resinous perfume of the Ukraine

your son faints among the evergreens

 

 

…EVERGREEN

 

A fir denuded of its flat leaves

now rests on its side smelling

of the black salt seas as my brother my bellwether

slowly revives he hears you squirming

 

in the wood box in the parlor like a rat

in steerage our orphaned father

you grunt uncomfortably from that old country

Fred now is not a good time

 

but I never turn back

never guess that you’re still here

in the ionized air of the white pine

in your right mind for the wrong reason

 

for eternity

 

 

 

 

TIME

 

looks like someone sleeping

more than I am used to

 

a violet crocus closed

as patient

as Spring is of snow

 

 

 

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